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How many people have been killed by Christians since Biblical times?
VICTIMS OF THE CHRISTIAN FAITH
"WONDERFUL EVENTS THAT TESTIFY TO GOD'S DIVINE GLORY"
Listed are only events that solely occurred on command or participation of church authorities or were committed in the name of Christianity. (List incomplete)
Ancient Pagans
* As soon as Christianity became legal in the Roman Empire by imperial edict (315), more and more pagan temples were destroyed by Christian mob. Pagan priests were killed.
* Between 315 and 6th century thousands of pagan believers were slain.
* Examples of destroyed Temples: the Sanctuary of Aesculap in Aegaea, the Temple of Aphrodite in Golgatha, Aphaka in Lebanon, the Heliopolis.
* Christian priests such as Mark of Arethusa or Cyrill of Heliopolis were famous as "temple destroyer." [DA468]
* Pagan services became punishable by death in 356. [DA468]
* Christian Emperor Theodosius (408-450) even had children executed, because they had been playing with remains of pagan statues. [DA469]
According to Christian chroniclers he "followed meticulously all Christian teachings..."
* In 6th century pagans were declared void of all rights.
* In the early fourth century the philosopher Sopatros was executed on demand of Christian authorities. [DA466]
* The world famous female philosopher Hypatia of Alexandria was torn to pieces with glass fragments by a hysterical Christian mob led by a Christian minister named Peter, in a church, in 415.
[DO19-25]
Mission
* Emperor Karl (Charlemagne) in 782 had 4500 Saxons, unwilling to convert to Christianity, beheaded. [DO30]
* Peasants of Steding (Germany) unwilling to pay suffocating church taxes: between 5,000 and 11,000 men, women and children slain 5/27/1234 near Altenesch/Germany. [WW223]
* 15th century Poland: 1019 churches and 17987 villages plundered by Knights of the Order. Number of victims unknown. [DO30]
* 16th and 17th century Ireland. English troops "pacified and civilized" Ireland, where only Gaelic "wild Irish", "unreasonable beasts lived without any knowledge of God or good manners, in common of their goods, cattle, women, children and every other thing." One of the more successful soldiers, a certain Humphrey Gilbert, half-brother of Sir Walter Raleigh, ordered that "the heddes of all those (of what sort soever thei were) which were killed in the daie, should be cutte off from their bodies... and should bee laied on the ground by eche side of the waie", which effort to civilize the Irish indeed caused "greate terrour to the people when thei sawe the heddes of their dedde fathers, brothers, children, kinsfolke, and freinds on the grounde".
Tens of thousands of Gaelic Irish fell victim to the carnage. [SH99, 225]
Crusades (1095-1291)
* First Crusade: 1095 on command of pope Urban II. [WW11-41]
* Semlin/Hungary 6/24/96 thousands slain. Wieselburg/Hungary 6/12/96 thousands. [WW23]
* 9/9/96-9/26/96 Nikaia, Xerigordon (then Turkish), thousands respectively. [WW25-27]
* Until January 1098 a total of 40 capital cities and 200 castles conquered (number of slain unknown) [WW30]
* After 6/3/98 Antiochia (then Turkish) conquered, between 10,000 and 60,000 slain. 6/28/98 100,000 Turks (incl. women and children) killed. [WW32-35]
Here the Christians "did no other harm to the women found in [the enemy's] tents - save that they ran their lances through their bellies," according to Christian chronicler Fulcher of Chartres. [EC60]
* Marra (Maraat an-numan) 12/11/98 thousands killed. Because of the subsequent famine "the already stinking corpses of the enemies were eaten by the Christians" said chronicler Albert Aquensis. [WW36]
* Jerusalem conquered 7/15/1099 more than 60,000 victims (Jewish, Muslim, men, women, children). [WW37-40]
In the words of one witness: "there [in front of Solomon's temple] was such a carnage that our people were wading ankle-deep in the blood of our foes", and after that "happily and crying for joy our people marched to our Saviour's tomb, to honour it and to pay off our debt of gratitude."
* The Archbishop of Tyre, eye-witness, wrote: "It was impossible to look upon the vast numbers of the slain without horror; everywhere lay fragments of human bodies, and the very ground was covered with the blood of the slain. It was not alone the spectacle of headless bodies and mutilated limbs strewn in all directions that roused the horror of all who looked upon them. Still more dreadful was it to gaze upon the victors themselves, dripping with blood from head to foot, an ominous sight which brought terror to all who met them. It is reported that within the Temple enclosure alone about ten thousand infidels perished." [TG79]
* Christian chronicler Eckehard of Aura noted that "even the following summer in all of Palestine the air was polluted by the stench of decomposition". One million victims of the first crusade alone. [WW41]
* Battle of Askalon, 8/12/1099. 200,000 heathens slaughtered "in the name of Our Lord Jesus Christ". [WW45]
* Fourth crusade: 4/12/1204 Constantinople sacked, number of victims unknown, numerous thousands, many of them Christian. [WW141-148]
* Rest of Crusades in less detail: until the fall of Akkon 1291 probably 20 million victims (in the Holy land and Arab/Turkish areas alone). [WW224]
Note: All figures according to contemporary (Christian) chroniclers.
Heretics and Atheists
* Already in 385 C.E. the first Christians, the Spanish Priscillianus and six followers, were beheaded for heresy in Trier/Germany [DO26]
* Manichaean heresy: a crypto-Christian sect decent enough to practice birth control (and thus not as irresponsible as faithful Catholics) was exterminated in huge campaigns all over the Roman empire between 372 C.E. and 444 C.E. Numerous thousands of victims. [NC]
* Albigensians: the first Crusade intended to slay other Christians. [DO29]
The Albigensians (Cathars) viewed themselves as good Christians, but would not accept Roman Catholic rule, and taxes, and prohibition of birth control. [NC]
Begin of violence: on command of pope Innocent III (the greatest single mass murderer prior to the Nazi era) in 1209. Beziérs (today France) 7/22/1209 destroyed, all the inhabitants were slaughtered. Number of victims (including Catholics refusing to turn over their heretic neighbors and friends) estimated between 20,000-70,000. [WW179-181]
* Carcassonne 8/15/1209, thousands slain. Other cities followed. [WW181]
* Subsequent 20 years of war until nearly all Cathars (probably half the population of the Languedoc, today southern France) were exterminated. [WW183]
* After the war ended (1229) the Inquisition was founded 1232 to search and destroy surviving/hiding heretics. Last Cathars burned at the stake 1324. [WW183]
* Estimated one million victims (Cathar heresy alone), [WW183]
* Other heresies: Waldensians, Paulikians, Runcarians, Josephites, and many others. Most of these sects exterminated, (I believe some Waldensians live today, yet they had to endure 600 years of persecution) I estimate at least hundred thousand victims (including the Spanish inquisition but excluding victims in the New World).
* Spanish Inquisitor Torquemada, a former Dominican friar, allegedly was responsible for 10,220 burnings. [DO28]
* John Huss, a critic of papal infallibility and indulgences, was burned at the stake in 1415. [LI475-522]
* Michael Sattler, leader of a baptist community, was burned at the stake in Rottenburg, Germany, May 20, 1527. Several days later his wife and other follwers were also executed. [KM]
* University professor B.Hubmaier burned at the stake 1538 in Vienna. [DO59]
* Giordano Bruno, Dominican monk, after having been incarcerated for seven years, was burned at the stake for heresy on the Campo dei Fiori (Rome) on 2/17/1600.
* Thomas Aikenhead, a twenty-year-old scottish student of Edinburgh University, was hanged for atheism and blasphemy.
Witches
* From the beginning of Christianity to 1484 probably more than several thousand.
* In the era of witch hunting (1484-1750) according to modern scholars several hundred thousand (about 80% female) burned at the stake or hanged. [WV]
* Incomplete list of documented cases:
The Burning of Witches - A Chronicle of the Burning Times
Religious Wars
* 15th century: Crusades against Hussites, thousands slain. [DO30]
* 1538 pope Paul III declared Crusade against apostate England and all English as slaves of Church (fortunately had not power to go into action). [DO31]
* 1568 Spanish Inquisition Tribunal ordered extermination of 3 million rebels in (then Spanish) Netherlands. [DO31]
Between 5000 and 6000 Protestants were drowned by Spanish Catholic Troops, "a disaster the burghers of Emden first realized when several thousand broad-brimmed Dutch hats floated by." [SH216]
* 1572 In France about 20,000 Huguenots were killed on command of pope Pius V. Until 17th century 200,000 flee. [DO31]
* 17th century: Catholics slay Gaspard de Coligny, a Protestant leader. After murdering him, the Catholic mob mutilated his body, "cutting off his head, his hands, and his genitals... and then dumped him into the river [...but] then, deciding that it was not worthy of being food for the fish, they hauled it out again [... and] dragged what was left ... to the gallows of Montfaulcon, 'to be meat and carrion for maggots and crows'." [SH191]
* 17th century: Catholics sack the city of Magdeburg/Germany: roughly 30,000 Protestants were slain. "In a single church fifty women were found beheaded," reported poet Friedrich Schiller, "and infants still sucking the breasts of their lifeless mothers." [SH191]
* 17th century 30 years' war (Catholic vs. Protestant): at least 40% of population decimated, mostly in Germany. [DO31-32]
Jews
* Already in the 4th and 5th centuries synagogues were burned by Christians. Number of Jews slain unknown.
* In the middle of the fourth century the first synagogue was destroyed on command of bishop Innocentius of Dertona in Northern Italy. The first synagogue known to have been burned down was near the river Euphrat, on command of the bishop of Kallinikon in the year 388. [DA450]
* 694 17. Council of Toledo: Jews were enslaved, their property confiscated, and their children forcibly baptized. [DA454]
* 1010 The Bishop of Limoges (France) had the cities' Jews, who would not convert to Christianity, expelled or killed. [DA453]
* 1096 First Crusade: Thousands of Jews slaughtered, maybe 12.000 total. Places: Worms 5/18/1096, Mainz 5/27/1096 (1100 persons), Cologne, Neuss, Altenahr, Wevelinghoven, Xanten, Moers, Dortmund, Kerpen, Trier, Metz, Regensburg, Prag and others (All locations Germany except Metz/France, Prag/Czech) [EJ]
* 1147 Second Crusade: Several hundred Jews were slain in Ham, Sully, Carentan, and Rameru (all locations in France). [WW57]
* 1189/90 Third Crusade: English Jewish communities sacked. [DO40]
* 1235, Fulda/Germany: 34 Jewish men and women slain. [DO41]
* 1257, 1267: Jewish communities of London, Canterbury, Northampton, Lincoln, Cambridge, and others exterminated. [DO41]
* 1290 Bohemia (Poland) allegedly 10,000 Jews killed. [DO41]
* 1337 Starting in Deggendorf/Germany a Jew-killing craze reaches 51 towns in Bavaria, Austria, Poland. [DO41]
* 1348 All Jews of Basel/Switzerland and Strasbourg/France (two thousand) burned. [DO41]
* 1349 In more than 350 towns in Germany all Jews murdered, mostly burned alive (in this one year more Jews were killed than Christians in 200 years of ancient Roman persecution of Christians). [DO42]
* 1389 In Prag 3,000 Jews were slaughtered. [DO42]
* 1391 Seville's Jews killed (Archbishop Martinez leading). 4,000 were slain, 25,000 sold as slaves. [DA454] Their identification was made easy by the brightly colored "badges of shame" that all Jews above the age of ten had been forced to wear.
* 1492 In the year Columbus set sail to conquer a New World, more than 150,000 Jews were expelled from Spain, many died on their way: 6/30/1492. [MM470-476]
* 1648 Chmielnitzki massacres: In Poland about 200,000 Jews were slain. [DO43]
(I feel sick ...) this goes on and on, century after century, right into the kilns of Auschwitz.
Native Peoples
* Beginning with Columbus (a former slave trader and would-be Holy Crusader) the conquest of the New World began, as usual understood as a means to propagate Christianity.
* Within hours of landfall on the first inhabited island he encountered in the Caribbean, Columbus seized and carried off six native people who, he said, "ought to be good servants ... [and] would easily be made Christians, because it seemed to me that they belonged to no religion." [SH200]
While Columbus described the Indians as "idolators" and "slaves, as many as [the Crown] shall order," his pal Michele de Cuneo, Italian nobleman, referred to the natives as "beasts" because "they eat when they are hungry," and made love "openly whenever they feel like it." [SH204-205]
* On every island he set foot on, Columbus planted a cross, "making the declarations that are required" - the requerimiento - to claim the ownership for his Catholic patrons in Spain. And "nobody objected." If the Indians refused or delayed their acceptance (or understanding), the requerimiento continued:
"I certify to you that, with the help of God, we shall powerfully enter in your country and shall make war against you ... and shall subject you to the yoke and obedience of the Church ... and shall do you all mischief that we can, as to vassals who do not obey and refuse to receive their lord and resist and contradict him." [SH66]
* Likewise in the words of John Winthrop, first governor of Massachusetts Bay Colony: "justifieinge the undertakeres of the intended Plantation in New England ... to carry the Gospell into those parts of the world, ... and to raise a Bulworke against the kingdome of the Ante-Christ." [SH235]
* In average two thirds of the native population were killed by colonist-imported smallpox before violence began. This was a great sign of "the marvelous goodness and providence of God" to the Christians of course, e.g. the Governor of the Massachusetts Bay Colony wrote in 1634, as "for the natives, they are near all dead of the smallpox, so as the Lord hath cleared our title to what we possess." [SH109,238]
* On Hispaniola alone, on Columbus visits, the native population (Arawak), a rather harmless and happy people living on an island of abundant natural resources, a literal paradise, soon mourned 50,000 dead. [SH204]
* The surviving Indians fell victim to rape, murder, enslavement and Spanish raids.
* As one of the culprits wrote: "So many Indians died that they could not be counted, all through the land the Indians lay dead everywhere. The stench was very great and pestiferous." [SH69]
* The Indian chief Hatuey fled with his people but was captured and burned alive. As "they were tying him to the stake a Franciscan friar urged him to take Jesus to his heart so that his soul might go to heaven, rather than descend into hell. Hatuey replied that if heaven was where the Christians went, he would rather go to hell." [SH70]
* What happened to his people was described by an eyewitness:
"The Spaniards found pleasure in inventing all kinds of odd cruelties ... They built a long gibbet, long enough for the toes to touch the ground to prevent strangling, and hanged thirteen [natives] at a time in honor of Christ Our Saviour and the twelve Apostles... then, straw was wrapped around their torn bodies and they were burned alive." [SH72]
Or, on another occasion:
"The Spaniards cut off the arm of one, the leg or hip of another, and from some their heads at one stroke, like butchers cutting up beef and mutton for market. Six hundred, including the cacique, were thus slain like brute beasts...Vasco [de Balboa] ordered forty of them to be torn to pieces by dogs." [SH83]
* The "island's population of about eight million people at the time of Columbus's arrival in 1492 already had declined by a third to a half before the year 1496 was out." Eventually all the island's natives were exterminated, so the Spaniards were "forced" to import slaves from other caribbean islands, who soon suffered the same fate. Thus "the Caribbean's millions of native people [were] thereby effectively liquidated in barely a quarter of a century". [SH72-73] "In less than the normal lifetime of a single human being, an entire culture of millions of people, thousands of years resident in their homeland, had been exterminated." [SH75]
* "And then the Spanish turned their attention to the mainland of Mexico and Central America. The slaughter had barely begun. The exquisite city of Tenochtitlán [Mexico city] was next." [SH75]
* Cortez, Pizarro, De Soto and hundreds of other Spanish conquistadors likewise sacked southern and mesoamerican civilizations in the name of Christ (De Soto also sacked Florida).
* "When the 16th century ended, some 200,000 Spaniards had moved to the Americas. By that time probably more than 60,000,000 natives were dead." [SH95]
Of course no different were the founders of what today is the US of America.
* Although none of the settlers would have survived winter without native help, they soon set out to expel and exterminate the Indians. Warfare among (north American) Indians was rather harmless, in comparison to European standards, and was meant to avenge insults rather than conquer land. In the words of some of the pilgrim fathers: "Their Warres are farre less bloudy...", so that there usually was "no great slawter of nether side". Indeed, "they might fight seven yeares and not kill seven men." What is more, the Indians usually spared women and children. [SH111]
* In the spring of 1612 some English colonists found life among the (generally friendly and generous) natives attractive enough to leave Jamestown - "being idell ... did runne away unto the Indyans," - to live among them (that probably solved a sex problem).
"Governor Thomas Dale had them hunted down and executed: 'Some he apointed (sic) to be hanged Some burned Some to be broken upon wheles, others to be staked and some shott to deathe'." [SH105] Of course these elegant measures were restricted for fellow Englishmen: "This was the treatment for those who wished to act like Indians. For those who had no choice in the matter, because they were the native people of Virginia" methods were different: "when an Indian was accused by an Englishman of stealing a cup and failing to return it, the English response was to attack the natives in force, burning the entire community" down. [SH105]
* On the territory that is now Massachusetts the founding fathers of the colonies were committing genocide, in what has become known as the "Peqout War." The killers were New England Puritan Christians, refugees from persecution in their own home country England.
* When however, a dead colonist was found, apparently killed by Narragansett Indians, the Puritan colonists wanted revenge. Despite the Indian chief's pledge they attacked.
Somehow they seem to have lost the idea of what they were after, because when they were greeted by Pequot Indians (long-time foes of the Narragansetts) the troops nevertheless made war on the Pequots and burned their villages.
The puritan commander-in-charge John Mason after one massacre wrote: "And indeed such a dreadful Terror did the Almighty let fall upon their Spirits, that they would fly from us and run into the very Flames, where many of them perished ... God was above them, who laughed his Enemies and the Enemies of his People to Scorn, making them as a fiery Oven ... Thus did the Lord judge among the Heathen, filling the Place with dead Bodies": men, women, children. [SH113-114]
* So "the Lord was pleased to smite our Enemies in the hinder Parts, and to give us their land for an inheritance". [SH111].
* Because of his readers' assumed knowledge of Deuteronomy, there was no need for Mason to quote the words that immediately follow:
"Thou shalt save alive nothing that breatheth. But thou shalt utterly destroy them..." (Deut 20)
* Mason's comrade Underhill recalled how "great and doleful was the bloody sight to the view of the young soldiers" yet reassured his readers that "sometimes the Scripture declareth women and children must perish with their parents". [SH114]
* Other Indians were killed in successful plots of poisoning. The colonists even had dogs especially trained to kill Indians and to devour children from their mothers breasts, in the colonists' own words: "blood Hounds to draw after them, and Mastives to seaze them." (This was inspired by Spanish methods of the time)
In this way they continued until the extermination of the Pequots was near. [SH107-119]
* The surviving handful of Indians "were parceled out to live in servitude. John Endicott and his pastor wrote to the governor asking for 'a share' of the captives, specifically 'a young woman or girle and a boy if you thinke good'." [SH115]
* Other tribes were to follow the same path.
* Comment the Christian exterminators: "God's Will, which will at last give us cause to say: How Great is His Goodness! and How Great is his Beauty!"
"Thus doth the Lord Jesus make them to bow before him, and to lick the Dust!" [TA]
* Like today, lying was morally acceptable to Christians then. "Peace treaties were signed with every intention to violate them: when the Indians 'grow secure uppon (sic) the treatie', advised the Council of State in Virginia, 'we shall have the better Advantage both to surprise them, & cutt downe theire Corne'." [SH106]
* In 1624 sixty heavily armed Englishmen cut down 800 defenseless Indian men, women and children. [SH107]
* In a single massacre in "King Philip's War" of 1675 and 1676 some "600 Indians were destroyed. A delighted Cotton Mather, revered pastor of the Second Church in Boston, later referred to the slaughter as a 'barbeque'." [SH115]
* To summarize: Before the arrival of the English, the western Abenaki people in New Hampshire and Vermont had numbered 12,000. Less than half a century later about 250 remained alive - a destruction rate of 98%. The Pocumtuck people had numbered more than 18,000, fifty years later they were down to 920 - 95% destroyed. The Quiripi-Unquachog people had numbered about 30,000, fifty years later they were down to 1500 - 95% destroyed. The Massachusetts people had numbered at least 44,000, fifty years later barely 6000 were alive - 81% destroyed. [SH118] These are only a few examples of the multitude of tribes living before Christian colonists set their foot on the New World. All this was before the smallpox epidemics of 1677 and 1678 had occurred. And the carnage was not over then.
* All the above was only the beginning of the European colonization, it was before the frontier age actually had begun.
* A total of maybe more than 150 million Indians (of both Americas) were destroyed in the period of 1500 to 1900, as an average two thirds by smallpox and other epidemics, that leaves some 50 million killed directly by violence, bad treatment and slavery.
* In many countries, such as Brazil, and Guatemala, this continues even today.
More Glorious Events in U.S. History
* Reverend Solomon Stoddard, one of New England's most esteemed religious leaders, in "1703 formally proposed to the Massachusetts Governor that the colonists be given the financial wherewithal to purchase and train large packs of dogs 'to hunt Indians as they do bears'." [SH241]
* Massacre of Sand Creek, Colorado 11/29/1864. Colonel John Chivington, a former Methodist minister and still elder in the church ("I long to be wading in gore") had a Cheyenne village of about 600, mostly women and children, gunned down despite the chiefs' waving with a white flag: 400-500 killed.
From an eye-witness account: "There were some thirty or forty squaws collected in a hole for protection; they sent out a little girl about six years old with a white flag on a stick; she had not proceeded but a few steps when she was shot and killed. All the squaws in that hole were afterwards killed ..." [SH131]
More gory details.
* By the 1860s, "in Hawai'i the Reverend Rufus Anderson surveyed the carnage that by then had reduced those islands' native population by 90 percent or more, and he declined to see it as tragedy; the expected total die-off of the Hawaiian population was only natural, this missionary said, somewhat equivalent to 'the amputation of diseased members of the body'." [SH244]
20th Century Church Atrocities
* Catholic extermination camps
Surprisingly few know that Nazi extermination camps in World War II were by no means the only ones in Europe at the time. In the years 1942-1943 also in Croatia existed numerous extermination camps, run by Catholic Ustasha under their dictator Ante Paveliç, a practicing Catholic and regular visitor to the then pope. There were even concentration camps exclusively for children!
In these camps - the most notorious was Jasenovac, headed by a Franciscan friar - orthodox-Christian Serbians (and a substantial number of Jews) were murdered. Like the Nazis the Catholic Ustasha burned their victims in kilns, alive (the Nazis were decent enough to have their victims gassed first). But most of the victims were simply stabbed, slain or shot to death, the number of them being estimated between 300,000 and 600,000, in a rather tiny country. Many of the killers were Franciscan friars. The atrocities were appalling enough to induce bystanders of the Nazi "Sicherheitsdienst der SS", watching, to complain about them to Hitler (who did not listen). The pope knew about these events and did nothing to prevent them. [MV]
* Catholic terror in Vietnam
In 1954 Vietnamese freedom fighters - the Viet Minh - had finally defeated the French colonial government in North Vietnam, which by then had been supported by U.S. funds amounting to more than $2 billion. Although the victorious assured religious freedom to all (most non-Buddhist Vietnamese were Catholics), due to huge anticommunist propaganda campaigns many Catholics fled to the South. With the help of Catholic lobbies in Washington and Cardinal Spellman, the Vatican's spokesman in U.S. politics, who later on would call the U.S. forces in Vietnam "Soldiers of Christ", a scheme was concocted to prevent democratic elections which could have brought the communist Viet Minh to power in the South as well, and the fanatic Catholic Ngo Dinh Diem was made president of South Vietnam. [MW16ff]
Diem saw to it that U.S. aid, food, technical and general assistance was given to Catholics alone, Buddhist individuals and villages were ignored or had to pay for the food aids which were given to Catholics for free. The only religious denomination to be supported was Roman Catholicism.
The Vietnamese McCarthyism turned even more vicious than its American counterpart. By 1956 Diem promulgated a presidential order which read:
"Individuals considered dangerous to the national defense and common security may be confined by executive order, to a concentration camp."
Supposedly to fight communism, thousands of Buddhist protesters and monks were imprisoned in "detention camps." Out of protest dozens of Buddhist teachers - male and female - and monks poured gasoline over themselves and burned themselves. (Note that Buddhists burned themselves: in comparison Christians tend to burn others). Meanwhile some of the prison camps, which in the meantime were filled with Protestant and even Catholic protesters as well, had turned into no-nonsense death camps. It is estimated that during this period of terror (1955-1960) at least 24,000 were wounded - mostly in street riots - 80,000 people were executed, 275,000 had been detained or tortured, and about 500,000 were sent to concentration or detention camps. [MW76-89].
To support this kind of government in the next decade thousands of American GI's lost their life.
* Christianity kills the cat
On July 1, 1976, Anneliese Michel, a 23-year-old student of a teachers college in Germany, died: she starved herself to death. For months she had been haunted by demonic visions and apparitions, and for months two Catholic priests - with explicit approval of the Catholic bishop of Würzburg - additionally pestered and tormented the wretched girl with their exorcist rituals. After her death in Klingenberg hospital - her body was littered with wounds - her parents, both of them fanatical Catholics, were sentenced to six months for not having called for medical help. None of the priests was punished: on the contrary, Miss Michel's grave today is a place of pilgrimage and worship for a number of similarly faithful Catholics (in the seventeenth century Würzburg was notorious for it's extensive witch burnings).
This case is only the tip of an iceberg of such evil superstition and has become known only because of its lethal outcome. [SP80]
* Rwanda Massacres
In 1994 in the small African country of Rwanda in just a few months several hundred thousand civilians were butchered, apparently a conflict of the Hutu and Tutsi ethnic groups.
For quite some time I heard only rumors about Catholic clergy actively involved in the 1994 Rwanda massacres. Odd denials of involvement were printed in Catholic church journals, before even anybody had openly accused members of the church.
Then, 10/10/96, in the newscast of S2 Aktuell, Germany - a station not at all critical to Christianity - the following was stated:
"Anglican as well as Catholic priests and nuns are suspect of having actively participated in murders. Especially the conduct of a certain Catholic priest has been occupying the public mind in Rwanda's capital Kigali for months. He was minister of the church of the Holy Family and allegedly murdered Tutsis in the most brutal manner. He is reported to have accompanied marauding Hutu militia with a gun in his cowl. In fact there has been a bloody slaughter of Tutsis seeking shelter in his parish. Even two years after the massacres many Catholics refuse to set foot on the threshold of their church, because to them the participation of a certain part of the clergy in the slaughter is well established. There is almost no church in Rwanda that has not seen refugees - women, children, old - being brutally butchered facing the crucifix.
According to eyewitnesses clergymen gave away hiding Tutsis and turned them over to the machetes of the Hutu militia.
In connection with these events again and again two Benedictine nuns are mentioned, both of whom have fled into a Belgian monastery in the meantime to avoid prosecution. According to survivors one of them called the Hutu killers and led them to several thousand people who had sought shelter in her monastery. By force the doomed were driven out of the churchyard and were murdered in the presence of the nun right in front of the gate. The other one is also reported to have directly cooperated with the murderers of the Hutu militia. In her case again witnesses report that she watched the slaughtering of people in cold blood and without showing response. She is even accused of having procured some petrol used by the killers to set on fire and burn their victims alive..." [S2]
More recently the BBC aired:
Priests get death sentence for Rwandan genocide
BBC NEWS April 19, 1998
A court in Rwanda has sentenced two Roman Catholic priests to death for their role in the genocide of 1994, in which up to a million Tutsis and moderate Hutus were killed. Pope John Paul said the priests must be made to account for their actions. Different sections of the Rwandan church have been widely accused of playing an active role in the genocide of 1994...
* As can be seen from these events, to Christianity the Dark Ages never come to an end.
If today Christians talk to me about morality, this is why they make me sick.
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[DA]
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[DO]
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[EC]
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[EJ]
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[HA]
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[KM]
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[LI]
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[MM]
M.Margolis, A.Marx, A History of the Jewish People.
[MV]
A.Manhattan, The Vatican's Holocaust, Springfield 1986.
See also V.Dedijer, The Yugoslav Auschwitz and the Vatican, Buffalo NY, 1992.
[NC]
J.T.Noonan, Contraception: A History of its Treatment by the Catholic Theologians and Canonists, Cambridge/Mass., 1992.
[S2]
Newscast of S2 Aktuell, Germany, 10/10/96, 12:00.
[SH]
D.Stannard, American Holocaust, Oxford University Press 1992.
[SP]
German news magazine Der Spiegel, no.49, 12/2/1996.
[TA]
A True Account of the Most Considerable Occurrences that have Hapned in the Warre Between the English and the Indians in New England, London 1676.
[TG]
F.Turner, Beyond Geography, New York 1980.
[WW]
H.Wollschläger: Die bewaffneten Wallfahrten gen Jerusalem, Zürich 1973.
(This is in german and what is worse, it is out of print. But it is the best I ever read about crusades and includes a full list of original medieval Christian chroniclers' writings).
[WV]
Estimates on the number of executed witches:
* N.Cohn, Europe's Inner Demons: An Enquiry Inspired by the Great Witch Hunt, Frogmore 1976, 253.
* R.H.Robbins, The Encyclopedia of Witchcraft and Demonology, New York 1959, 180.
* J.B.Russell, Witchcraft in the Middle Ages, Ithaca/NY 1972, 39.
* H.Zwetsloot, Friedrich Spee und die Hexenprozesse, Trier 1954, 56. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I am usually not around as to make many updates to my blog but I recieved two e-mails recently of replies to this blog that I felt I needed to make public. These are the two responses. (Note, that both these responses are made by the same anonymous person...too scared to make their identities public..or at least known to me):
Reply 1
"Has anyone noticed how eager Rook is to ban any oppostion over at the A.Net...they are the most cowardly site around, with probably the highest banning rate anywhere.
Very insecure people...
Fortuneately, with personalities like theirs they could never win any elections and get power over us."
Reply 2
"Of course, his screening process will prevent anyone else from seeing it...further proof of his insecurity...but he will see it.
And that's the point.
Just wanted to let you know what a lot of people thinkk of you Rook."
Now, usually I don' resort to making these hate-mails public, as I feel it degrades the integrity of my journal, and people who are stupid enough to make anonymous ad hominem attacks against me need not deserve any reply. However, the complete and utter ignorance of these two replies were entertaining enough, in my opinion, to merit such discussion. So, without further due...allow me to retort:
"Has anyone noticed how eager Rook is to ban any oppostion over at the A.Net...they are the most cowardly site around, with probably the highest banning rate anywhere."
Hardly, and all one needs to do is review my threads there at the AN (www.atheistnetwork.com) to see how faulty such a claim is. Indeed, I would go as far as to say I'm one of the most tolerant of the moderators. And none of the mods ban anyone. Only JAKE and JUAN, the site owners, can ban people. If anybody wishes to check this out for themselves, surely he would answer any questions. His contact info is Chronicbuddha on AIM. And you can contact Jake on the forums as well.
Hell, the first rule on the forum is:
#1. Jake and/or Juan (Amoeba) reserve the right to ban or revoke user memberships for any reason they see fit. Bans are IP based.
This is to prevent random mods from banning people over stupid or selfish reasons.
Further, I have never asked to ban anybody, including Whitefox, and Borilla who are by far the most idiotic of the xians that visit the network. Moreso, if you are confusing me suggesting troll nicknames is on par to banning, you are greatly mistaken. In fact, most people, including you most likely, would be deserving of the "troll" name.
You spew things without thinking, making erroneous claims, and do nothing to prove your case. In fact, instead of taking the time to sit down and make a decent commentary supporting any points you might have made, you sling around insults and only make worse any attempt at looking like a semi-intelligent human being. Although, in your case, it's quite apparent that in order to make your self even resemble intelligent you would have to try harder then most.
Oh, and in relevant review, the AN on average bans maybe three people a year. This is either due to repeated breaking of the rukles, or people asking to be banned. Note: Compare this to www.christianforums.com who has, on average, banned between 50-100 people a year.
And if we're going to discuss "most cowardly" site, lets look at some of the rules.
From this link:
Rule No. 4 - No "Offensive" or "Illegal" Posts, PMs, Links, or Images
4.1 You will not post, attach, use or send any posts, PMs, links, images or files:
a. that are obscene, vulgar, or sexually explicit (including any descriptions of sexual organs or activities in any detail).
b. that are hateful, racist, or sexist (discussions regarding certain biblical interpretations on the roles of men and women will not be considered "sexist" under this rule).
c. that violate or promote the violation of local or international laws and regulations (including the posting of any copyright material such as songs, movies or text).
d. that are blasphemous or satanic (including posts that take the Lord's name in vain).
4.2 You will restrict any posts relating to the following controversial topics to the Philosophy & Morality, Liberal Theology or Christian Philosophy forums (this site uses the legal definition of marriage which is a union between a man and a woman):
a. drug use.
b. gambling.
c. polygamy.
d. extramarital sexual activity.
e. abortion.
f. homosexuality.
g. transsexuality.
4.3 You will not bypass the automatic word censor in any way. In addition, if any word you posted is automatically censored you will remove this word and use an alternative.
Talk about scared! Are they afraid the regime will fall if they bring up any of these topics? Are they scared that if people curse that perhaps they will start thinking for themselves? If discussion about abortion if brought up, are they afraid that people are going to have pre-marital sex?
I doubt that being able to speak freely about any subject is going to drastically change anybodies mind...oh wait,...that's right...it does. Because free thought is the number one killer of religion. And if anybody is scared of death, religionists are.
And we can't forget the omonous:
Rule No. 5 - No Promotion of Other Religions
5.1 You will not post, attach, use or send any posts, PMs, links, images or files that promote a religion, belief, faith or doctrine other than "Christianity" as defined in Rule 6.
a. For the purposes of this rule, Atheism is to be considered as a "religion".
Talk about people running for their lives! Not only have they mistakenly called atheism a "religion", but they also are so afraid of discussing other religions that it's a rule now! Zeus forbid, or Allah forbid that some pagan or muslim want to discuss objectively their religions compared to Christianity! Intolerance abounds, it seems, when one looks at other forums, when compared to the Atheist Network, who allows all types of posters of ALL different faiths to post. All the AN asks is:
#11. If you are a theist and you feel you are being treated unfairly, please direct your attention to the top of the page where it says "ATHEIST NETWORK".
#12. Theists may only post in the forum labeled ´Atheist vs. Theist´ and nowhere else unless given prior permission by Jake or Juan.
Usually, if the theist isn't here to spam the AN, they can post elsewhere, and in many cases that has happened. The list is pretty large.
"Very insecure people..."
This coming from the person who can't even reveal their names... *rolls eyes*
"Fortuneately, with personalities like theirs they could never win any elections and get power over us."
Firstly, with all the grammar and spelling mistakes you have made, it's amazing that you even put together a full sentence without scrapping this e-mail and starting over. Or maybe you did, and this was the best you have tried to put together.
Secondly, all joking aside, who is "they?" The democrats? The atheists? You aren't very clear which grou of people you are refering too. However, it does make a point as to how arrogant and self-righteous you are. Making grandios generalizations and using conspiracy theories to boot!
"Power over us?" What planet are you living on? Have you even read the Patriot Act (Sponsored by Bush Lite™)? Lets look at what one journalist has written about the Patriot act:
Consider, for instance, the USA Patriot Act. The act was drafted in record time in the days immediately following the attacks of Sept. 11, 2001, by top lawyers at a Justice Department, FBI and CIA all still reeling from those attacks.
The law was meant to update the power of the government to bring it in line with emerging technology; to provide added funds for translators, border security and emergency victim relief; and to assure the American people that something was being done. All of these praiseworthy things it did, hence why many of us in Congress voted for it (and still support much of it).
However, the law tragically emerged from the Congress saddled with provisions that simply went too far. Like a hero in a Greek tragedy reaching too far or flying too near the sun, provisions in the Patriot Act reach too far and undermine the essential principles on which our Constitution is founded -- the Bill of Rights.
One notorious provision, the "sneak-and-peek" provision, opens the door to the proliferation of secret search warrants that do not require the police to notify the person being searched until much after the fact. Certainly, the power to conduct secret searches in certain circumstances such as sensitive counter-terrorism cases should exist, as it did even prior to the Patriot Act, but it should be the exception to the rule and not vice versa. The Patriot Act does not strike this balance.
Another problematic provision allows the government to obtain secret intelligence court orders, without any probable cause linking the target of the order to suspected criminal activity. These orders can mandate the production of any "tangible thing" the government claims is "relevant" to some ongoing foreign intelligence or international terrorism investigation. However, this broad power should be checked by at least a modicum of real judicial review, and bear at least a minimal link to the person whose property or premises is being seized and searched. The act requires neither.
Not content with exercising the unprecedented broad powers it was awarded in the 2001 Patriot Act, the administration has moved aggressively to obtain even more power. A Son of Patriot Act has been drafted and floated on the Hill, and pieces of it have found their way into other legislative initiatives. The administration has fought vigorously to defeat any moves on the Hill -- even those sponsored by conservative Republicans -- that would in any way limit the Patriot Act; even amendments that would simply scale it back to what the administration said it wanted when the act was proposed.
Moreover, the administration has been using the Patriot Act to prosecute cases that have nothing whatsoever to do with terrorism. Local corruption, fraud and drug cases have all been the happy recipients of Patriot Act developed evidence.
Secret evidence, which candidate George W. Bush explicitly opposed in the 2000 campaign, has found resurgence in recent cases. In one case challenging the secrecy pervasive in the Patriot Act, the administration argued that even previously published U.S. Supreme Court decisions should be kept secret! While the federal court ordered the administration to declassify such information, the fact that any U.S. president would make such a claim reveals just how insensitive is this administration to long-standing notions of privacy and civil liberties.
Consider, for instance, the USA Patriot Act. The act was drafted in record time in the days immediately following the attacks of Sept. 11, 2001, by top lawyers at a Justice Department, FBI and CIA all still reeling from those attacks.
Anybody can feel free to read the rest of the article. In fact let's see what the ACLU says:
NEW YORK – A new Justice Department website purporting to “dispel the myths” about the controversial PATRIOT Act in fact creates fresh myths about the law and gives new life to old ones, according to analysis released today by the American Civil Liberties Union.
“It is inexcusable that Attorney General Ashcroft is using this website to further mislead the public about controversial portions of the law,” said ACLU Executive Director Anthony D. Romero. “The American people are entitled to a more honest account.”
The website was announced last week in conjunction with the launch of Ashcroft’s multi-city public relations “roadshow” to promote the PATRIOT Act and perhaps lay the groundwork for further expansions of executive power. The ACLU is a major focus of the website, which includes a section titled, “Dispelling the Myths.”
But the ACLU said the website only repeats the Justice Department’s now-familiar practice of misrepresenting the scope and impact of the law. In noting the misrepresentations, the ACLU is far from alone. As Utah’s conservative Deseret News reported about Ashcroft’s Salt Lake City whistle-stop on Monday, “groups spanning the political spectrum from the ACLU to the Eagle Forum dispute Ashcroft's interpretation of the Act.”
In a report issued last month, the ACLU documented a consistent pattern of factually inaccurate assertions by the Justice Department in statements about the PATRIOT Act to the media and Congress. For instance, Justice Department spokespeople have repeatedly – and mistakenly – said that Section 215 of the law, which vastly expands the power of FBI agents to secretly obtain records and personal belongings of innocent people, does not apply to United States citizens and permanent residents. The new DOJ website fails to correct this mistake. That report is available online at http://www.aclu.org/SafeandFree/SafeandFree.cfm?ID=13099&c=207
That being said, who has the power over who? And why aren't you scared yet? because you're gullible, and only the gullible people in this world actually would say something as incredulous to reasonability as what you have said.
"Of course, his screening process will prevent anyone else from seeing it...further proof of his insecurity...but he will see it."
I bet you feel extremely dumb now. Again, use of the term "insecurity" while failing to use your name while hiding behind the "anonymous" feature only makes you look like a huge ass. Not to mention a flaming moron. Oh...and a hypocrit.
"And that's the point.
Just wanted to let you know what a lot of people thinkk of you Rook."
I see. Well thank you for attempting to bring that to my attention. But you see, this is only what you wish for. You probably wish for this more then winning the lottery. I wouldn't be surprised if you prayed for this. Unfortunately, for you, this will never be the case. Perhaps YOU may feel this way, but then again, based on your presentation here, your opinions are about as reasonable as dog shit. And there is far less truth to them then you think there is.
Anybody who knows me, knows that I could care less what a weasal like you thinks about me, save for perhaps use as entertainment. And more importantly, anybody reading this can see exactly what a weasal you are. Making bizzare claims and ridiculous personal attacks on somebody who is obviously smarter and more learned then you could hope to be if you had a dozen lifetimes.
Either way, have a nice day...although I'm sure, by now, it's ruined...
Rook Hawkins
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| | Security: | | | Subject: | Bum bum | | Time: | 09:03 pm | | Current Mood: | Content |
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| A little song for my girl:
Please Forgive Me: Bryan Adams
Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met - the same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger - I wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on…
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on - you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the night - you know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'…
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need you like I do
Babe believe me - every word i say is true
Please forgive me - If I can´t stop loving you
Never leave me - I don't know what I do
Please forgive me- I Can´t stop loving you
Can't stop loving you
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| | Security: | | | Subject: | Anniversary | | Time: | 06:10 pm | | Current Mood: |  happy |
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| Just wanted to wish Amanda a happy anniversary today...we've been through a lot the past few months and I look forward to all that lay ahead of us in the years to follow.
I love you baby. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| It's been some time since I updated my blog. It's not my fault, my wonderful life has kept me from my computer for some time.
Last weekend was beyond amazing. I was able to spend two days alone with Amanda at my grandmothers house. We had a great time, and shared a lot of intimate moments. Moments that proved to me that we can live like this for a long time. It isn't going to be a walk in the part all the time, and we've had a rough instant here or there, but I can't stay mad at her for long...and we both cave easily.
We know it's a road ahead of us that is full of bumps, even a few bolders...but we also know that it's a road that must be treked. And I think we look on that road with hope, affection and even some anxiety. But that is what makes it all the more real. We don't have any false illusions of grandier with our relationship or idiums of perfection. We know what a lasting relationship entails and this weekend - even this past week - we really showed each other that we're not giving up no matter what.
I miss her terribly now, I'm off of work after a long night and wish I was holding her in my arms now. I wish I could kiss her lips, or taste her neck. But there is always tomorrow and my dreams tonight.
Goodnight out there.
(This is from my website, but I think it speaks volumes)
The Lonely Dream
Her tongue played over his neck. He grabbed her tighter, closer. She gently kissed along where she just traced, her warm breath against his skin made him crawl his hands over her back and shoulders. Their passion drove them forward, she moved her lips down his throat and his chest. She suckled and bit and that only inflamed his desires.
She ran her fingers along his arms, stroking them, bringing him a new meaning of the word pleasure as she enticed his physical limitations with every part of her. She let her tongue creep back up his body where she found his lips and kissed him deeply. He held the kiss, soaking in every moment he could.
Her fingers trickled down to his stomach where she circled one around his naval, then they went lower. He broke the kiss and grinned at her. She smiled back, seductively, playfully. He wanted her, to be inside her, but rushing things would not make the night any better, it would just make it end faster. So he allowed her to tempt him with her body, to pull him into her world.
In fact he knew that soon it would be his turn. And she would call him, beg him as he was begging her. He felt his skinpucker with every touch of her fingers along him, with every stroke and caress he needed her more. He wanted to cry out but the pleasure he felt stuck the sound deep in his throat.
Soon she showed him mercy. She slid him inside her, the friction intense, and her gasps filled him with almost the same intensity. She paced over him, leaned in gently and kissed him. Her body danced, and his flowed into a melodic symphony of heavy breathing and an almost spiritual revelation of emotions. He thrust up, and knew he hit the right spot as her back arched and her nails dug deep into his skin. She didn't scream, but she didn't have to. Her reaction had said it all.
He set his hands on her hips and ran them over her smooth thighs. The gentle pumping of muscles drove him to go on, his body and mind, all as one and with the goal of pleasing her. He could feel a change of air pressure, and something soon didn't feel right. No longer was the interaction as genuine as when it had begun. It started to shift, and parts of the room began to fall away. Still she kept her pace, as if unaware of what was happening around them.
The door flew back and soon only they and the bed remained, it was as if the world had become a void and all that was left was them. He began to feel panic, but her body distracted him. Something was wrong, this couldn't have been real. While she was real, and he knew her, this situation was not. And soon he began to feel himself sinking into the bed. She remained above him, looking down at him, smiling, but he wasn't sure why exactly.
He sunk deeper into the cushions, so deep he should have hit ground, but he didn't, and the sheets around him kept expanding lower as if they had no end. He fell and fell until he could no longer see her. The world was as black as the pain he felt in his chest. He reached up and tried to grab something, anything but failed.
He shot upright in his bed, sweat poored over him. He reached next to him but she wasn't there and a swell of emotion hit him. He felt tears form in his eyes...it had been a dream. But only recently had such events been false. He was lonely without her, an empty shell. The darkness in his dream was the darkness left under his skin where she used to fill the void.
He touched his stomach where her lips had touched him in the dream, tears now fell off his cheaks onto the comforters. How could he sleep again without her here? How had he fell asleep before without her? He knew eventually she'd be with him again, but for now they had to be apart. He didn't know for how long, that factor was not his to decide anymore. He checked his alarm clock, noting the time. he had a few hours before work. Until then he'd try to find her again in his dreams, because that was the only place he could be with her for now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
|  | You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.
Verbal/Linguistic | | 96% | Musical/Rhythmic | | 96% | Logical/Mathematical | | 93% | Bodily/Kinesthetic | | 86% | Intrapersonal | | 86% | Visual/Spatial | | 79% | Interpersonal | | 68% | </td>
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| | Current Music: | Aerosmith - Don't Wanna Miss a Thing | | Security: | | | Subject: | Feelings | | Time: | 01:14 am | | Current Mood: | In Love |
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| I had another lonely night home, having to leave Amanda's house for the second night this week. This has become a relatively new concept since I had been spending the night with her more then I've been at my own place. And quite frankly, I rather would be there then here sometimes.
I look into Amanda's eyes and just want to hold her so close to me, feel her body under mine, and our lips pressed together. I enjoy tracing my tongue along her neck, and featherly running my lips across her stomach with my goatee brushing light.
I miss her heavy breathing along my neck, or the way she strokes below my earlobe. Her soft carress along my face, and her passionate way she presses against me.
But it's so much more then that. I can look into her blue eyes (sometimes green) and get lost there, other times I can read them and see her love there. We can hold long conversations together, intellectual conversations, and she isn't dishonest to the point where she can't admit she's wrong...and I have no hesitations about admitting the same to her (although it seldom happens *grins*). It's so hard to let go of her when I leave, it's like I'm leaving a part of me at the door, only to gather it back up when I enter again.
I tell her that I love her. But it's not just "love" as in the generic brand cheese-sandwich that everyone uses when they think they're in love. When I tell her I love her, I mean I appreciate her...I respect her...I cherish every moment I have with her...and hope to all hopes that I can keep her as happy as she deserves to be.
I appreciate her because she takes care of me...she makes me feel like a boyfriend and not a toy or a carpet. She makes me food sometimes, and isn't afraid to pay for a meal or gas, or skip school and work to be with me. It proves to me that I'm one of her top priorities, and I've never been there before.
I respect her because she's independant, strong-willed, and honest. She isn't afraid to speak her mind, and at times be a bitch because let's face it...sometimes we're all in situations where we could use somebody with attitude. And she's got a full helping of it. (Which I love as intensely as her gentle non-cynical side) She's true to herself but not afraid to discover new things and explore new paths with me.
I cherish all the time we spend together, all the movies we miss and the hot-cider that goes cold. I cherish all the times I hold her and when she holds me. I cherish her in the morning when she wakes up, and although she thinks she somehow deminishes over night, she takes my breath away. I love her during the night, when she falls asleep in my arms and when she snores ever so lightly. I cherish her nails bitten down and worn - the hands of a truck mechanic that carry a classy and arousing touch.
When I say I love her...I mean I love her, and everything about her. She's my life, my world, by very connection with the universe. She puts things in perspective for me, and shows me answers to questions I've not had answered.
Now I head to bed so I can dream about Amanda tonight, and where I can find some solitude in this lonely room. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Last night was once again magical with my love. I don't mind saying that they're becoming a habit, but I'm addicted to her and enjoy being with Amanda very much. She's amazing in so many ways.
I'm on my break so I can't write much now, but perhaps later. I miss you love, see you tomorrow. *kiss* I love you. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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